I suck at bloggin already

I've been thinking lately about how I use to blog on a fairly regular basis back in high school on a little known website called LiveJournal (remember!?) and how I need to start doing that again... Then I remembered that I had set this blog up last year so I could update every one on my Comic Con adventure.... look how well that turned out. So I suck at blogging already.

I'm gunna try again though.

Getting out my feelings might help me cope with my newly diagnosed depression. I use to roll my eyes at people who told me they were depressed. I would judge them and think, "oh brother, they're just feeling sorry for themselves and they want me to feel sorry for them too." But now I know what it feels like and I feel quilty for thinking that way towards my friends. I, like most people, thought that they should just "snap out of it" because their life isn't that bad... but depression is so much more than that. For no real reason one can be depressed. I get mad at myself all the time now because I feel like I have no right to feel this way. There are people out there who are starving, who are sick, who are dying and I'm altogether living the high life compared to them. But no matter how hard I try I can't stop feeling this way.

I didn't know what was wrong with me because the changes have been slow. I finally realized something was definitely wrong a few weeks ago when I could not stop crying. Sometimes I would just be sitting on the couch or driving somewhere, not thinking about anything in particular, when all of a sudden I would burst into tears. I would cry for about 10 minutes and then stop. This has happened on and off for the past 3 weeks. I also have no motivation to do anything anymore. I use to clean my apartment on my days off and now I only clean a tiny bit at a time once it's finally built up too much to get anything done. I sleep A LOT. Just the other day I took 3 naps! I don't get excited about anything...beacuse there is nothing to get excited about. I just live this horribly mundane life of sleeping, eating, tv watching, and working at a job I hate.

I need something drastic to happen in my life. I need to go somewhere or do something absolutely insane.... but I can't think of what. The things I can think of cost money and I only have $100 to my name.



I'm not writing this blog for anyone to really read. I'm just writing to get my thoughts out of my head.

The Run Down

Hello and welcome to the world of awesomeness.
OK not quite but it'll be fun.
I decided to start a blog so people could follow my summer adventure from start to finish. Seeing as this is post number uno I better start from the beginning... ya know get you hooked, introduce you to the main characters, set up the plot, etc.

First things first. My grand adventure this year is..... drum roll please.......

going to COMIC-CON!!! Woohoo!

I'm gunna assume that if you are reading this you know what Comic-Con is so I'm not gunna waste my or your time explaining it. But Comic-Con has been placed on my bucket list and I have always been determined to go there at least once in my life. I happened to share this information with a co-worker/friend of mine by the name of Sarah Grissom (she and I will be the main characters for the duration of your time reading this blog =)
Sarah is awesome. We share a love of all things fantasy/geeky/funny/cute. We spend hours at work talking about tv shows, movies, and books we loved as a kid and love now as adults (instead of working of course). And I will give Sarah all the credit for saying those magic words on that fateful day , "Why don't we go to Comic-Con together?"

Let me back up a little to tell you that, because I am such a nerd, I have several Lord of the Rings statues that I have collected over the years from a place called Sideshow Collectibles. It's a cute little company that makes figurines of just about everything from Disney cartoons to alien monsters from Predator. I get their weekly newsletter and every year they have a Comic-Con section because they have a booth there. So following this lovely... what I thought to be a mere fantasy.... conversation with Sarah I get my weekly newsletter email from my friends at Sideshow. And there before my eyes is a small sentence which reads,"Comic-Con 2010 tickets are now on sale!"

I immediately call Sarah up to see how serious we are about making this dream a reality. And there, while at the YMCA of middle Tennessee during my internship, I purchased the tickets to what I hope will be the best event of my life.

Because this will come up later, Sarah and I purchased the 4 day event pass WITH preview night... mainly because it didn't cost any more than the 4 day event pass without it so why not right?

In the months since our purchase we have been planning our adventure every time we talk to each other. I'll just give you the quick run down of where we're at so far:

• Sarah has a friend who lives in San Diego who has offered to let us stay with her so no hotel costs (sweet!)
• I have signed up for Bing flight alerts so I can purchase our plane tickets at the lowest possible cost
  
• Sarah and I have a love of all things Firefly related and we are going to dress up as Kaylee and Zoe and are in the process of designing our costumes
• My Aunt and Uncle also live in San Diego and have offered to take us to the beach after the convention (holla!!)

So there ya go. Now you are all caught up on Operation Con 2010. I plan on using this blog as an easy way of letting those of you who care know all about the happenings involving our little adventure. I hope to have a laptop that I can bring with me to upload pictures during the event and to relay the awesomeness as it occurs. For now though, you are stuck with the boring prep work details.

Sorry =)